Yesterday I had a lovely day. I went to the Chicken Shed theatre to
record a track in the studios there. The track's called Sometimes (Song
For Mum) and it was written by Paula Rees, who writes all the Chicken
Shed musicals and plays. What's incredible is that Paula's wheelchair
bound; she can't move much or talk or anything, but still manages to
express herself creatively in the most amazing way, using her fingers
and a headpiece connected to a computer. She's really, really talented.
The track I recorded is going to be on an album of Paula's music and
poems, which will be out next Spring. I think Gabrielle and Cliff
Richard are also going to do tracks and some quite famous actors will be
reading out her poems as well.
It was such an unbelievable day. Paula's a really beautiful girl. I was
a little bit nervous and kept saying,"Are you sure it's okay? Do you
like the way I've done it??" She answered by smiling while I was singing
the track. She's great.
I met loads of other people while I was there, including a group of BTEC
performing arts students, and when I was leaving, one of the workers
there said, "If ever you get bored with what you're doing, please come
and work for us!" She offered me a job!!!
I've been working hard on my album again and I'm nearly there now. I'm
going to America to work with Jam and Lewis and that'll be the last
writing I do. Then we'll have to get all the songs together and decide
which ones to throw away, which is really hard because when they're your
own, you love them all. But you have to do it! They mean so much to you,
but you have to admit it when something's not good enough to go on the
album. After that, we'll start looking for people who can mix the
tracks. Then I have to choose a single, sort out the artwork and shoot a
video. At the moment I've got no idea what the first single will be.
Sometimes when I'm driving along, a song will come in my head amd I'll
think, well if that's come into my head then it's got to be a single!
But then the next day I'll be singing a different one and get confused!
Still, I've got loads of ideas for pictures and videos and stuff like
that. When I'm writing the songs I actually think about the videos to go
with them. I love coming up with mad ideas and dance routines.
Of course, we've all been doing lots of Spice stuff, too. Did you hear
that Holler was played 6,600 times in one week on The Box in America?!
Wicked! I was reading in the paper the other day that UK acts are not
doing at all well in America, and that the last acts to do well there
were in the 80s. They didn't mention the Spice Girls once, isn't that
strange? Anyway, I'm off to New York next week with Victoria to do
promotion out there. We'll be appearing on morning programmes like Kathy
and Regis and The Today Show and stuff like that, then we're presenting
the VH1 fashion awards for the UK. It's going to be hard work!
We'll be in New York for 4 or 5 days then I go off to Canada on my own
to do some more promotion. We're seperating so that we can cover more
ground. The Melanies aren't going because Mel B's in Japan promoting her
album and Mel C's touring. We've told her to shout, "Spice Girls Holler"
while she's on stage, though. We'd love to do the promotion together but
unfortunately we're all over the place! Hopefully, there'll be an album
launch party. (Well, Mel and I will have one anyway!). I went to see Mel
C perform at Shepherds Bush and I have to say she was absolutely
amazing. I really want to see her again at Wembley Arena, but it's on
fireworks night, which is a big night for my family, so I'll have to see
how it goes. And have you heard Mel B's album? It's brilliant and I
actually train to it most days - I love every track!
Today I'm doing an interview for Sky One, so I'd better go in a minute.
They've interviewd each one of us and then they'll edit it all together
into a half-hour special to be shown around Christmas time. Then I'm
doing an interview for Spin, which is an American magazine. Phew! See
you next time,
lots of love
All the Spice stuff is happening, which is great! We had a wicked launch
party - the music was good, everybody's friends and family were there
and I didn't mix my drinks, which meant I didn't have a hangover. Phew!
Next week we're off to the MTV awards in Stockholm, which is going to be
brilliant. We're performing Holler and we'll be wearing black leather,
so it should be a good laugh. Last week I went to see Mel C's gig, which
was excellent. It was amazing to see her up there and it have me that
buzz back - I just want to be up on stage again!
My next single is Feel So Good, a remix of the first track on my album.
I was going to release it in December but now it's going to be the end
of February, which is a better time to put it out. I need a little bit
of time off because I've been working solidly for a long time now. And
there's all the Spice stuff to concentrate on as well!
I've already shot the video for Feel So Good. I went to LA to make it,
because I really wanted it to have a sunny vibe. Unfortunately, it was
raining non-stop when I got there. I was going to film it in the desert,
but the whole area was flooded and nobody was allowed to go there, so in
the end, we filmed it in a big old house that's about to be demolished.
It's really cool, very seventies, with a corridor running all the way
around the inside wall. I'm not going to say much more - you'll have to
wait and see, (but I do have a little rubadub thing with this guy in it
and there's a raunchy party scene too!) It's quite a mature video and
I've got straight hair in it. I used Tony again, the choreographer who
worked with me on Tell Me, so he came out to LA with me too. He's great.
Did I tell you someone's made a documentary about me? It's going to be
good hopefully. I think it shows me in a different light to the one
people usually see. People think i'm loud and scary, but this shows the
down-to-earth side of me. It goes out first on BBC Choice on the 18th of
November and then it'll be on BBC 2 around the 10th of December, so
don't miss it!! After the BBC 2 transmission, they're showing FISH - the
short film I got involved with earlier this year (the one I played a
fishwife in). So that should be interesting - I haven't even seen the
final edit yet!
In a few weeks time, I'm having a party at my house in aid of
Blackliners. As I think I've mentioned before, Blackliners provides
services and information to people of African, Asian and Caribbean
origins living with or affected by HIV and AIDS. Well, since I'm one of
the Blackliners patrons, earlier this year I agreed to have a big party
to raise money for the charity. All kinds of people are coming and
there's going to be a salsa band and an auction of loads of other things
going on. I've told everyone to dress "bright and funky", so it should
be a really good laugh. I can't wait for it! I'll tell you about it all
in the next issue!
Phoenix is lovely - she's learning things by the minute. She's nearly
talking in sentences now, which is amazing. I really love spending time
with her, so I'm really looking forward to having some time off. I'm not
going anywhere special - I just want to hang out with Phoenix for a
See you soon! Hope you love Forever as much as we do!
I had a great time in America last week! I was finishing off my album
with two guys called Soulshock and Karlin who wrote Heartbreak Hotel for
Whitney Housten and stuff with Toni Braxton. They're really cool guys -
they're actually Danish but they've been living in LA for 12 years. I
was recording in the same studio that Melanie B and Melanie C have been
in recently, and also Bruce Springsten! I recorded two songs while I was
out there and I'm going back in December to do some more.
I was working till two or three in the morning, as well as doing loads
of promotion for the Spice Girls. Although it was busy, it was a really
good week. I took my mum and David's mum to look after Brooklyn and they
went to Disneyland and to the zoo and things like that. One day David
called and asked what Brooklyn was doing. I said,"He's going to Rodeo
Drive for lunch and then the zoo." As the woman in the car said,
"Brooklyn hasn't got a bad life!" Still, we had really bad problems with
photographers out there. They kept taking pictures of Brooklyn and most
of them ended up in Hello! magazine.
New York was good. Emma and I did loads of TVs and radios and we did
photoshoots everyday. Then we presented the VH1 fashion awards. I had a
bit of a disaster, actually. Maria Grochwogel had spent about three
weeks making my beautiful full-length white dress with little diamonds
on it, but when I tried it on the day before to show David's mum and
check it matched my handmade shoes, the thing didn't fit. It was about
three sizes too big! Luckily I had something else with me and I finally
wore something by Rebecca Davis, who has a label called Bare. The dress
was pink and orange and I wore pink shoes, orange nail varnish and
orange eye lashes to go with it! Clash clash!
We met some great people. We interviewed Stella McCartney, Lenny
Kravitz, Liz Hurley, Cuba Gooding Jr., Christian Slater and Macy Gray.
We had to ask them standard fashion questions like, "What are you
wearing?", "Who are your favourite designers?" and "Are you enjoying the
awards?" Unfortunately George Clooney wasn't there, which was a shame
because Emma was really excited about meeting him!
Jennifer Lopez was really sweet. Emma liked her a lot and she was an
inspiration. She's got a very pretty face and nice hair. We also met
James Brown, who said to Emma "Ow!!! I feel good!"
I liked Tom Ford from Gucci, too. He and Liz Hurley were the best
dressed people there, in my opinion. I asked him if he was aware that
Posh Spice's first dress was a little Gucci number and he said, "I'm so
flattered, thank you so much."
We bumped into the guy from Sex Pistols - John Lydon. He came up to me
in front of the camera and said "UP THE ARSENAL." I didn't know who he
was and asked him what he was wearing and he replied, "Clothes, clothes
that suit me!" I just looked at the camera and said, "Really?"
We also met Destiny's Child and when they got in the car at the end of
the night they shouted, "Girl Power! Girl Power!" They looked absolutely
stunning in their long matching Versace dresses. They kept saying how
much they loved us and we kept saying how much we loved them.
My other news is that I'm over my viral meningitus now, although I still
get very tired and and sometimes I have to wear sunglasses because I
can't bear the light, indoors as well. They reckon it can be in your
blood for a year, unfortunately. When it first happened I had to spend
two weeks flat on my back in bed. The only good thing about it was that
I cancelled work and spent all my time with David and Brooklyn.
Have you heard that I'm writing a book? I'm doing it because there are
so many untrue stories written about me and I wanted to get my side
across. It's like doing the spring cleaning in a way - I can talk about
everything that's been going on, get it all out of the way, forget about
it and carry on. It's about time people heard both sides of the story.
We're all very excited about the album release. People have been saying
we've split up for ages, but now they'll have to shut up! This album
shows we can do a lot more vocally now, our choreography is much better
and there's nothing holding us back!
WE'RE STONGER THAN EVER!
At the end of my last letter I was off to Slane Castle, wasn't I? (So
much has happened since then!) It was an amazing gig, and we stayed on
and played with Bryan (Adams) at the end of the show, which was great.
The audience was huge. It was raining on and off, but it stayed dry
while I was on stage, luckily. Then we did a few more rehearsals and
started the tour!
The tour was fabulous. It seemed to get better and better with every
show - the crowds were louder and singing more songs every time. The
first gig was still fantastic, but it just kept on improving, so the
last gigs at Shepherds Bush were the best of all. My family and friends
from college were there, as well as Emma. They made me more nervous, but
I work well under pressure and it gave me a real incentive to try and do
my best. Luckily I had a good couple of shows. My voice became quite
tired during the tour and I couldn't do much extra talking after a
while. I had to do a lot of "streaming" (steam inhaling) to keep it
going. I don't sing each song the same way every night - every show is
different. I usually get the same feeling on most of the songs, but
sometimes I might not feel as aggressive on Going Down - I might feel
more cheeky! It just depends on how I'm feeling.
We had to cancel a couple of gigs - Liverpool and Bristol - because my
drummer was ill in hospital. I was sad to miss Liverpool, but it was
mid-way through the tour and I was feeling quite tired, so I think I'll
be on better form when we play there in February. I've been in Europe
for a couple of weeks now and I love being back on the road. But it can
be scary playing a foreign country if the audience doesn't speak
English. It's particularly hard for non-English speakers to understand
what I'm saying on stage because I talk too fast - even English people
don't know what I'm on about! (So I just talk less). I'm really looking
forward to playing Wembely Arena.
Did you hear that I've had three nominations in the MTV Europe awards?
They are: Best New Act; Best Female (against Madonna, Janet Jackson,
Jennifer Lopez and Britney Spears, which is amazing!); and Best Song
with Lisa for Never Be The Same Again (against Madonna's Music and
Robbie's Rock DJ). I was surprised to be nominated, but I think I
deserve to be!
My new video for If That Were Me is very simple and moody but hopefully
it's appropriate for the song. I was very lucky because a lot of people
worked on it for free or at a reduced rate so that more proceeds would
go to charity. It wouldn't have been right to spend hundreds of
thousands on a big s****y video when the aim of the song was to make
money for the people who've got nothing. So we just did it really simply
- in the Albert Docks in the East End of London on a miserable day!
It was cold, it was raining, I was wet and freezing and I had to do all
this singing. I thought, "I'm really suffering for my art today!" But it
was still a good shoot. The director was Cameron Casey, who shot I Turn
To You. He's brilliant.
The money I'm contributing will go towards a Kandu Arts project called
No Place Home, which aims to raise public awareness of the homeless
issue, as well as provide support and practical help to young homeless
people. Its an arts-based project, which is why I found it so
interesting, and it's all about giving people the chance to explore
what's going on in their lives through workshops, theatre, dance, music
and video. It's about finding solutions to problems, not throwing money
at them - and that's why it appeals to me.
What else? Well, I haven't been partying that much because I was on
tour, but one night we had a few drinks with Tomcat, the support band,
and that's where I met my boyfriend!!! He's called Dan.
When I was back in England, I hung out with Melanie and Phoenix quite a
bit. I hadn't seen Phoenix for a long time, so I wanted to become good
buddies with her again. She's a top kid. She seems to recognise me every
time, but Brooklyn seems a bit scared of me. He's shy anyway, but
especially with me!! Boys, eh?